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Assalamualaikum..
Satu hari Anis ada baca blog sorg kawan tersyg...
dia cte pasal rasa down dia bla pk pasal kwn2 yg da fly...
fly2 away...from Malaysia untuk study...
dari situ..anis tepeker pasal perasaan anis sndiri..
anis happy ke dgn apa yang anis wat skarang..
in UIA...
do i really want it???
do i do the rite thing??
Since i was in UIA...amek physical sc.
yang bakal amek degree in mathematical sc.
only majoring in math...
anis asyik tefikir pasal tukar kos...
anis nak tukar medik..(anis layak ke...or mampu ke??)
anis nak tukar farmasi..(urmmm)
anis nak tukar engine..(my parents never support that n me myself pun...not sure because of im very bad in fizik. i cant even understand the concept)
and lastly anis tefikir nak tkar accounting..(but 1 of my lecturer said that there is a very big gap between science prog. and art prog.)
i dont really understand what she meant..
but because of her word...i finally feel that...
this is my way...
the god knows better what is the best for us...
i was into math since i was in the kindergaten..
so that s the best for me...
n maybe thats why i've got B for my BIOLOGY...
rite??
AND Honestly..
i feel down..sgt2..
everytime bla anis dgr kwn2 wat medik..
because eventhough anis slalu truk lam bio
n ok je dlm math..
tp dr kecik anis slalu kata 'ANIS NAK JADI DOKTOR'
anis rasa nak nangis sgt bla ayat tu muncul balik lam otak anis..
because i just cant catch my dream anymore...

Tp yang pasti skarang ni..
anis kat sini..
UNiversiti Islam Antarabangsa..
and lg 1 hikmah yg anis nmpk..
i was stuck in U not in otherrs or even oversea..
because the god want me learn more than just to get a degree...
its about Islam...behaviour...akhlak n all
which i cant get as much as this at other place..
n alsoo...kat sini anis slalu rasa nak baiki diri..
in terms of what islam want..
slama ni kita leka dgn dunia ni...
tp anis b'syukur sbub anis sntiasa dsedarkn
dan diingatkan bila anis duduk dalam UIA ni...
this iis what i want i think..
the actual HEAVEN atas dunia ni...

to amy,
jgn la rasa down...
awak kan sbenarnye dpt o.sea..
tp Allah knows better rite..
msti ada hikmah...
yeah..like wat ur fren said..
if u sacrifice u will get more...
maybe klu awak pegy o.sea awak x smpt merasa dpt 4 flat..(hehe..just kidding..jgn marah)
and pengakuan jujur ni..
waktu amy gytau amy da dpt medik..
im happy 4 u.. n anis tau amy msti dapat
sbub amy bsmangat besar sgt..
tp anis sdih skit sbub anis asyik tefikir
nape anis x dtentukan untuk tu..
anis pun nak jugak...hurm...
and 1 more thing backup plan that is anis
nak masuk UTP pun xtercapai..
sedih..
and another backup plan
anis nak masuk UM..
tu pun tak termakbull..
ape salah anis anis amy..
ape yg anis dpt skunk adalah sesuatu yg anis xpnh tefikir pun..

ok enough...that enough crying for today..hhehe..
Urm..thats the end of my post today..
lets end with tasbih kifarah and surah al-as

to all my fren...doakan anis ek..
n ill pray for u all too...
thanks everybody...